Wednesday December 1, 2021

Lately I’ve been so busy stressing about opening a wellness center that I haven’t put the effort into maintaining my own wellness.

This is a blatantly poor choice on my part.

By poor, I mean: does more harm than good (to me and others).

Zoning out on the couch and watching TV may distract me from my stress temporarily but it doesn’t sooth my soul. Nor does it get to the root of any of the sources of my stress.

Skipping my physical yogasana practice may seem like it opens up an additional timeslot in my day, but tends to result in a reduction of efficiency over the course of the rest of the day. (Not that efficiency is always the end all be all, but it does add simplicity. And, I’m opening a wellness center; I’ve got some shit to accomplish.)

I’ve even skipped my first-thing-in-the-morning 20 minute meditation over the last few days… (a week maybe?). That’s my base commitment to myself. . . I’ve been oversleeping, and I find it difficult to do a first-thing-in-the-morning practice at 11am, for many reasons. And then, rather than at least slotting it in later in the day, I have simply skipped it. Poor choice.

The decrease in my baseline stress tolerance over the same time period has been noticeable. . . The afternoon coffees haven’t been helping either. They’ve only served to increase my agitation.

None of which is serving me in regards to coordinating the logistics around this Wellness Center that I’ve committed myself to. Due to both my procrastination, and some unanticipated road blocks, I’m starting to feel the pressure to get the doors open before these looming rent payments come due.

Truthfully, I’ve been feeling the pressure for a bit. But like I said, avoidance, and deprioritizing the things that I know help me to feel and be better.

That ends. Here. And now.

~ Katherine



Pose (asana) that I’m loving at the moment: Downward Dog

The weight in my hands in this asana puts a tension in my shoulders that allows me to reach a stretch in the sides of my torso that can be difficult for me to reach otherwise. I also enjoy balancing my weight between my hands and my feet.